August 13th, 2002

Kolkhoznitsa

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it's fixed. i'll be meeting her at the end of october. god knows how often i prayed for this to happen. and i still do, there is so much fear can still destroy. since 1.5 months i've seen a tremendous change in our relations, every day brings a new improvement. 2.5 more months to go..
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Kolkhoznitsa

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damn it. i forgot my ex-wife's birthday 5 days ago. funny thing - i remembered it until the day before. well well. we're not like married or something.
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Kolkhoznitsa

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as i flew towards the brightest of suns the wax that held together the feathers of my wings gave in to her self-combusting flames. i was paralyzed by an ocean of freezing hell, only burning fear prevented it from reaching the inside of me.

for the first time i not only faced my fear, i have the courage to give it a voice. a tremulous, stuttering, shrill, pitiful voice, so despised by lovers. i wanted to understand.

no answers. only cold, prerecorded, distant reassurance.

still breathing is an option.
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